A Tale of Two Cities

My heart is in two cities - Grahamstown, South Africa and Edinburgh, Scotland. God, send me!

07 March 2006

The Saga of the Skylight

If I haven't told you by now that I live in a room with no windows and only a skylight, I live in a room with no windows and only a skylight. I have written a ballad (in my head) about this sad situation, but it really is too sad to record here and you might not take me seriously. The heroine is very beautiful and tragically in love with... whoa, I can't go on. I will tell you what the Lord said to me one day as I was bemoaning my lack of view. The Lord is my confidence - again and again I am reminded of how I cannot put my hope in anything but Him, especially living in a new country and really not having much of a clue about how things work.

You see, you have nowhere to look but up.

I am enjoying my flat, besides all that. The bathroom taps sing like real birds!! You should hear them! Roni and Marie and I have some good laughs. Roni is a walking quotation dictionary, and one of her favourites is this: "Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards" (Oscar Wilde). I typed that off by heart! Try this one: "True love is not seeing someone as they are, but rather as God intended them to be" (Fyodor Dostoevsky). One that I have been thinking about recently is "Friendship is a sweet responsibility, never an opportunity" (Kahil Gibran). I found that in the friendship book from my dearest digsies.

My job is pottering along. When I began I survived by imagining all sorts of dramatic things about why I was there, which were mostly set in the 2nd World War, and the womanly work force rose up and did their bit while their sweethearts went to the front. But now, I just do my thing and chat to the peeps around me. Been training myself to sit still for loooonng periods of time.

I do love this nation and the nations within (during our outreach meetings, our flat has been host to New Zealand, Australia, China, Germany, France, Russia, India, Fiji, USA, England, Czech Republic and others I have forgotten) but sometimes I could really do with a good dose of South African humour. In fact, a specific Beaufort St sense of humour - the kind that involves things which look like sheep, things which sound like broccoli, and everyday life performed in opera and other loud noises. Imagine the trials of a Beaufortian loose on her own - the blank stares and polite murmurs.

03 March 2006

3rd March 2006

CANDACE LYN SUTTON,
I LOVE YOU
AND I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN
(said in southern accent like Ewan McGregor in Big Fish)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

15 February 2006

February

A long absence from Blog... no news in this case is good news, as I have actually had little time for composing memoirs! (Busy living life and doing stuff)... But was today chivvied along by one of my many international blogspot fans (thanks John), and so here is a brief update. First, the weather. February began at -6 C and I am not joking. It's a good time of the year to be on the other side of the world. (The way I generally feel is that anytime of the year is a good time to be on the other side of the world, but the Lord is working on me!) Today, however, is absolutely clear and sunshiny. The other day I actually went out without gloves and I did not get frostbite in my fingertips! There are wee buds on the lawns - purple and yellow and brave. Could it be... that I have survived the winter?

Other good news is that I am doing some temping work. Temping work is the lowest form of office life. I am not complaining, let me tell you. It puts money in my bank account. On Monday, I have a new job beginning at a publishing house, which I am really excited about. Yes, it's 9 to 5. But even the 9 to 5 planet needs undercover missionaries.

We are growing together as a church in love and service! We stand at the gates of this city... our city... and our faith is a battering ram. The Lord has been teaching me a lot about Love.

If I speak in the tongues of men, and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13 v 1-3)

And about Victory. In the words of that great Rock man, David Crowder: "We've ALREADY WON".

Hope to speak soon. I have to go buy a chicken. I'm roasting it for tonight's outreach meeting. God - bless that chicken.

11 January 2006

Doubt that the Sun doth Shine...

but never doubt I love thee...

The weather in Scotland doesn't seem to think there's much of a reason to celebrate at the beginning of this brand new Year. A year of possibility! Indeed, a year of probability! Due to my distinct lack of mathematical knowledge, I don't really know how chances work, but I delight in saying that I know that God is 100% likely to prove faithful this year!

I spent Christmas with some of the most fantastic people in the world - who are fast becoming family in Edinburgh. Still afraid to give my heart away again (and again) but they're drawing me in... I can't help loving them!

[The only thing which marred Christmas was a certain shopping trip which failed rather miserably. Jenny P. and I went to the Bear Factory in Leith, hoping to surprise Bailey with a new bow tie for Christmas. They didn't have any! And when I broke the news to Bailey, I knew he was disappointed, though he tried not to show it. Then he brightened up and said "At least my Jess-tie is tartan!," (He calls it a Jess-tie because I cut and made it out of Jess's old pyjama bottoms) "And I'm a Scottish Bear, you know!" This said in his gruff English accent. "Really," said I, "I thought you were born in Surrey!" "Yes, well," he replied hurriedly, "I was doing some research - the Internet really is wonderful - and I discovered I have a great great aunt by marriage on my mother's side who was born in Nova Scotia, and they're all descended from the Scots over there, you know." Thereupon I was seized with jealousy. "You're Scottish and I'm not!" I cried, and rushed out of the room.]

On Boxing Day, I headed down to London, a very large, sooty, and noisy place down in England, and reunited with and met some really rather clean looking people, none the worse for soot. The joy of chatting and praying with Shirl, the pride of seeing her explosive performance as Mrs Sowerberry in Oliver!, the inspiration of sharing photos and stories from Europe with Heather, the intimacy we experienced in the crowd crush at Westminster at New Year (with each other and half of London)! The blessing of seeing my parents and sister - who were visiting Epsom, the very great pain of saying good bye until who-knows-when.

Shirley took me to see "The Lion King", which I have no sufficient vocabulary to describe. Our jaws hung open and tears streamed from our eyes.

I am now returned unto Edinburgh, and moved into a great flat for a wee while, at least. It's on the top floor of a graceful Georgian building in New Town. I have a very funny room with no windows and a skylight in the ceiling. The rain beats down on it and I think of spring. I've never really experienced the joy of spring because I've never really experienced Winter with a capital W (though Grahamstown in July has its moments...) Spring must be GLORIOUS. I read in the newspaper that they have calculated, taking into account such things as the weather, the effects of overspending and overeating at Christmas, and I think it was something like the empty shelves after the Sales - they have calculated that the 23rd of January will be Britain's most unhappy day. Bah humbug to that! Happy people, unite! Storm the forts of sadness! Leave no stone unturned! We shall find the beauty and the gladness of life! We shall fight on the beaches! We shall never surrender!

And so I sit and squeak, smiling to myself because I am a squeaky wee thing facing Real Life once again. I smile because I know Someone who's bigger than Real Life - a God who's with me as I run into the wind and see more mountains ahead. Storm the forts of sadness!!

"Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus!" Phillipians 3 v13b -14

19 December 2005

Jenny P. and I tour Edinburgh

Royalty on The Royal Mile

Drinking Yuppie Yummy - Sorry Vicks!!

The Wind in the Winter

Jana 'n' Me

17 December 2005

Cinderella Returns

And so I have left the 19th century behind me for now, having learnt that labour exploitation is not so pleasant, and neither are shoulders which feel as though they would crumple into my pelvis, or hands blistered and cracked from various -ides and -ines. The cleaning products we used in the hotel were marked "For Professional Use Only". Hmm...

I haven't really left the 19th century behind completely (could I ever?). Bring on a true Dickensian Christmas, in this beautiful city of lights and bagpipes!! We are going to watch "A Christmas Carol" at the theatre next week. On Princes Street, there are lights everywhere you look, and - in the gardens - an ice skating rink, and a 'German Market' full of Christmas goodies. Jenny Pettinger and I went to the market today, and my heart was so full of the sweetness of it all, I couldn't stop smiling.

13 December 2005

Perhaps... pictures...

Jenny, visiting from D B (dearly beloved) Gtown, has been teaching me to put photos on this blog. Here's a test shot -


That's me in the middle, and my possums. I love them.